Lesson 6 homework

I hope this lesson opened your awareness to the significance of awakening in the dimension of Mutuality.

What I’d like you to contemplate is:
What did this lesson bring up for you?

Did it stimulate a new or renewed hope?
I didn't & don't feel hopeless. Things are good, although there is always room for improvement. However, I don't have very many relationships.

Did it open an old wound?
It did bring up memories about pain and stress of childhood, and the unhappiness of my parents.

Did it bring up cynicism about love, belonging, or real connectedness with others? 
No.

Whatever is up, I hope you’ll spend some time writing in your journal about it.

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I spent much of my life without significant relationships. In the boarding school I went to in my high school years, other kids would talk about their families, but I never felt I had a family. Although of course I did. But it was not a happy family. I always dreaded going home for school vacation. I was lonely, never had a girlfriend, etc. In my senior year I did have a good roommate that I have kept in touch with until the present. Later, in college, I never had a girlfriend either. I now realize that I ran from relationships. There were several girls who liked me, but I was unable to reciprocate. They moved too fast for me and I ran away. I did, however, have several good platonic friends who were women, and I have kept in touch with some of them. Well, blah blah blah. I don't see much point in going on with my romantic history except to say that I finally realized in my 40s that personal growth would be slow if I continued as a solo player, and did finally get married to a wonderful woman I had known for years and I feel it has been a success in most ways. Since no one is going to read this except me, and I know all this stuff, I will quit here.