The question I’d like you to contemplate before that lesson is:
Is there any way in which you don’t feel fully here?
Perhaps not fully embodied, or not fully invested in your life, or in being human? If so, what is the cost of that to you?
What is it about that that no longer works for you?
Feel free to record your thoughts in your journal.
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These questions do not immediately resonate with me. But perhaps the following might be relevant: For just about as along as I can remember I have been assaulted by "zingers" - painful thoughts, usually of something akin to shame, or self-loathing, that I actively push away by engaging in another thought, or making a noise, or doing something. So this is a part of me that I am not accepting. Through WD I am learning to greenlight these events. On the one hand, it's OK for me to be doing this. On the other hand, I can also start practicing non-resistance to the painful feelings brought up by these thoughts.
Since starting WD I have also had periods of emotional painfulness in the heart. I have practiced not pushing this away but consciously feeling it, and to some extent exploring where it might have come from (loneliness as a child, rejection from others, feelings of not being loved by my parents, etc.)
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